Reflections on 2008 - - What 2009 brings....

In pursuing the life you want, you don't want to miss out on the life you have.

Embrace who you are, appreciate where you are and what you have, now, in this moment. There is no time like the present to enjoy what you have.

Sometimes life passes by so quickly that we forget to pay attention to what is going on. The kids grow up before our eyes, we get older and then we wonder where the time went. We live in a fast-paced society where work takes a large chunk of our day. Learn to live in the moment today.

Living in the moment is all about living like there's no tomorrow. It takes practice but in the end, you'll lead a fuller life. To do this you must realize beauty in every moment, and in everyday activities. This is your life, now live!

Be Thankful for what is. When you find yourself wishing for something you don't have, or wishing your life would be different, start your quest for your wish by being thankful for what is already in your life. This will bring you back to the present moment. You don't want miss the gifts right in front of you because you are always looking beyond what is in the present moment to what once was or what might be. If you are thankful for what is, you'll be happy to be in the moment instead of somewhere else.

sometimes I wonder why I read the news.

Here are 2 top stories that really blew my mind:

Man accused of selling child for beer
GREENFIELD, Calif. (AP) - Police have arrested a Greenfield man for allegedly arranging to sell his 14-year-old daughter into marriage in exchange for $16,000, 100 cases of beer and several cases of meat.

Virginity auction hits$3.7 million
SAN DIEGO - Natalie Dylan, probably not her real name, is like many young women who are trying to find a way to pay off college. Dylan though is not like many young women in that she is trying to wipe out her college debt (and more) by auctioning off her virginity.

okay. back to work now.

I don't find it funny

that I am so sore I can barely carry my purse.

holy hell, my arms HURT!

Conversation with my 6 1/2 year old.

Hunter pops into the car yesterday after school & immediatly asks

H: Mom, can I have a cell phone?

Me: EXCUSE ME?

H: I want a cell phone.

Me: And just who are you going to call Hunter.

H: M (a little girl in his class) because she has a cell phone.

Me: WHAT?!?!?!?!???

H: She has a cell phone and I want to call her.

Me: Use our home phone or my cell phone.

H: But I want a cell phone like her.

Me: HUNTER MICHAEL PEARSON YOU WILL NOT HAVE A CELL PHONE UNTIL YOU ARE 10! 10 sounded like a good number and it was the 1st one to pop into my head. Even that sounds too young.

H: Mom, your such a bore. By the way, M gave everyone her cell number to call her.

Me: Hunter, stay young as long as you can. 7 year olds don't need cell phones.

It's when.............

......you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

......you start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

......you start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

......your opinions have gotten stronger. suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable andwhat isn't.

......one minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

......you laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

......you feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you tryand cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

......you get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. And cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

......you go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

......you worry about money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Maybe this will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion.

My life.

My life oscillates between extreme order and random chaos

I'm trying to decide which state I'm in right now.

2009.

Wow. It's here. And it holds a lot in store.

It dawned on me New Year's Day that Jayden will be 5. Jayden, my baby. 5 years old.

I just don't know if I'm ready for that.

Surgery is looming its head around the corner but wait........maybe I do want another baby.

SHOOT ME NOW!

I am going to be 30 this year. 30. I don't need another baby.

If 30 is going to be anything as bad as 25, HELP ME NOW!

Maybe that's where the baby comes in.

I had 2 by the time I was 25!

That seems like eons ago.

as far as New Year's Resolutions, I've decided to de-clutter & simplify my life.

Sounds easy enough. No one needs so much extra crap.

Just don't touch my shoes.