Sunday, January 11, 2009

It's when............. stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

......your opinions have gotten stronger. suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable andwhat isn't. minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you tryand cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. And cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. worry about money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Maybe this will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion.